Throughout the whole Jolee’s Journey with the Bottle…I have remained cautiously optimistic about the whole situation. She’s taken a bottle and then not taken a bottle and then taken a bottle again. I hoped this was the end of everything. I hoped she was really going to take a bottle forever. Well, not forever, but […]

And just like that…my return to work was here…for the second time. August 12th came way to fast. Jolee was not doing great with a bottle, but she was at least getting some milk in her while I was away, so I was okay with it. I was working 8:00 a.m. – 3:30 p.m. I […]

It’s times like these where I’m just pissed off that I even have to work. Yes, I wrote a post about how I could NEVER be a stay at home mom. But, when something is wrong with your child…you want to do everything in your power to fix it. So, she can’t take a bottle…let […]

I am going to attempt to sum up the end of July 2019 and all of August 2019 without sounding like the most ungrateful son of bitch that ever walked this planet. It fucking sucked. Jolee is healthy. I am healthy. My family is healthy. My kids are alive and breathing. But, July and August […]

I have been anxiously awaiting this appointment more than anything. Not that I wasn’t happy with chiropractor, because I definitely was, but I felt like I would probably get some definite answers as to why she wasn’t taking the bottle and how long it might be until she actually took the bottle. The speech therapist […]

I am still in shock that I was granted an additional 6 weeks of paid time off. I absolutley cannot believe it. It is for sure the best case scenario and much better than me going back part time because I will recieve my full pay. Scott and I decided that we were going to […]

This week I was returning to work. And I was really freaking sad. I was not looking forward to going back to work at all. I think it was a couple of different things, but mainly knowing that Jolee was my absolute last baby made me sad. I just wasn’t ready to go back to […]

Even though I have been a mom before, I sometimes feel like it’s my first time all over again. I catch myself constantly looking back at my older posts to see what I did with the other kids in terms of sleeping, napping, breastfeeding. But every kid is different. EXCEPT…NONE OF MY KIDS LIKE TO […]

When I say never, I mean, absolutely 100% NEVER have I ever wanted to be a stay at home mom. This is ZERO judgement if you are a stay at home mom. I freaking bow down to you if you are a stay at home mom. You are the real MVP. I love my kids […]

Well, my glorious 4 hours stretchs of sleep came to a halt this week. I am fairly certain that Jolee is going through a growth spurt. I was aware that growth spurts happen between weeks 2 and 3, so I was ultimately prepared for it. They can last anywhere from a couple of days to […]

We left the hospital late afternoon on a Saturday. As we were leaving the hospital, I was concerned about my mental state. I told Scott that I just needed today to recover, but was that really all I needed? Just one day to get my shit together? On top of my extreme emotions from our […]

After Jolee was delivered, we had to spend 2 1/2 days in the hospital. Day 1 was essentially great. I got to meet Jolee. After I gave birth, we did immediate skin to skin. I had a second degree tear so they went straight to sewing me up. Let me tell you, this is not […]