I’m sitting at home. ALONE. ALL ALONE. L I T E R A L L Y A L L A L O N E. And it’s been such a great day. I have done so much stuff today that has really filled my cup up to make me a whole human being again. As I […]

one year old

After a hectic start to Jolee’s life…where are we now? Well, I did not keep up month to month posts with Jolee. So, we are pretty much going to jump from 4 months old to now…1 year old. She’s perfect. And feisty. And funny. And I love her so much. As I was editing the […]

infant speech therapy

Throughout the whole Jolee’s Journey with the Bottle…I have remained cautiously optimistic about the whole situation. She’s taken a bottle and then not taken a bottle and then taken a bottle again. I hoped this was the end of everything. I hoped she was really going to take a bottle forever. Well, not forever, but […]

Week 12 is another week that I have been waiting for and also dreading. I had an OB appointment to see if there was a heartbeat. I honestly felt in my heart that there was going to be a heartbeat, but I couldn’t shake the feeling of her putting that Doppler to my stomach and […]

Week 12 of Pregnancy 6

With the exception of a couple people, Scott and I decided that we were going to wait even longer than normal to tell everyone that we were pregnant, which just makes things so difficult. So far, we have told my parents, his parents, his grandparents, 3 friends, and my CrossFit coaches. I would say it […]

Week 9 of Pregnancy 6

This was the week that we were going to find out if we have a baby or not. I didn’t need the ultrasound to tell me there was a baby in there. I knew there was. All of my symptoms told me so. And, behold, we have a baby. All the measurements were right where […]

Week 8 of Pregnancy 6

Another week…and I’m still pregnant. I honestly can’t believe it. But I’m happy. This week I had to go to the doctor at some point and follow up again with my HCG levels. I was at the doctor Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday last week…so, the last place I wanted to be was this damn doctor’s […]

Week 5 of Pregnancy 6

I wish I could wait a really, really, really long time to tell everyone that I am pregnant. Mainly because of my history of 3 miscarriages. I’m always on edge that when I finally share the news, something is going to happen. I’m going to lose my baby. I’ve been through it. And it sucks. […]

unexpected unplanned pregnancy

I’M PREGNANT. For the 6th time. And I also think I’m miscarrying. For the 4th time. Jesus, y’all. I just don’t even know where to start. This was, yet, another unexpected pregnancy. I had a feeling I was pregnant. I can’t explain, it was just a feeling in the pit of my stomach. I went […]

pregnancy test

We are more than half way through the year, and I find myself reflecting back on prior posts. I post a lot of things for accountability. If I put it out there, I have to do it, right? Ha, Nope. So, here I am, about to be vulnerable as hell and tell you everything that […]

i feel like i'm losing myself

After realizing I was still being irrational..see last post…, I finally talked to Scott that night. I basically told him everything I was feeling about medicine, and keto, and therapy, and life. When I texted him and asked if he would go to therapy with me, I offered no explanation. I wanted to at least […]

Monday happened. And I’d like a redo. God, this dreaded appointment. This dreaded doctors office. I was so over everything at this point. I am pretty sure I have been in that office more in the last 2 months than I have for all my pregnancies combined. Well, not really, but that’s what it feels […]

It’s been a couple of weeks since my last update on all of this blood work and hcg level bullshit. I ended up having to go to get blood work done two other times. It went from a 33 to a 25 to a 3. And they still wanted me to come back for more. […]

Well, it’s next week. And I still have pregnancy hormones. AKA my HCG levels are above 0. So aggravating. I went to the doctor on Thursday and they called me on Friday, around the same time as last week. “Hey Keisha, I just wanted to let you know that your HCG levels are a 33, […]

The day of my follow up doctor appointment in regards to my bicornuate uterus , I was actually off work. Briar had a well check that morning, then I had my appointment, and then I had a massage scheduled for a little later in the day. While I waited for my massage, I asked Scott […]