I’m sitting at home. ALONE. ALL ALONE. L I T E R A L L Y A L L A L O N E. And it’s been such a great day. I have done so much stuff today that has really filled my cup up to make me a whole human being again. As I […]

one year old

After a hectic start to Jolee’s life…where are we now? Well, I did not keep up month to month posts with Jolee. So, we are pretty much going to jump from 4 months old to now…1 year old. She’s perfect. And feisty. And funny. And I love her so much. As I was editing the […]

infant speech therapy

Throughout the whole Jolee’s Journey with the Bottle…I have remained cautiously optimistic about the whole situation. She’s taken a bottle and then not taken a bottle and then taken a bottle again. I hoped this was the end of everything. I hoped she was really going to take a bottle forever. Well, not forever, but […]

My worry about me losing my job began to increase as the day continued. When I got home from the speech therapy appointment and I got Jolee settled for a nap, I decided I was going to call HR to see what my options were. Whenever I called in, the HR manager wanted to put […]

baby bottle feeding

It’s times like these where I’m just pissed off that I even have to work. Yes, I wrote a post about how I could NEVER be a stay at home mom. But, when something is wrong with your child…you want to do everything in your power to fix it. So, she can’t take a bottle…let […]

3 month old

I am going to attempt to sum up the end of July 2019 and all of August 2019 without sounding like the most ungrateful son of bitch that ever walked this planet. It fucking sucked. Jolee is healthy. I am healthy. My family is healthy. My kids are alive and breathing. But, July and August […]

postpartum depression

I have been anxiously awaiting this appointment more than anything. Not that I wasn’t happy with chiropractor, because I definitely was, but I felt like I would probably get some definite answers as to why she wasn’t taking the bottle and how long it might be until she actually took the bottle. The speech therapist […]

infant speech therapy

If this is your first post you’re ever reading or if you need a refresher, you should go back and read the following: If you don’t feel like reading that many posts…start from Week 7..this post will pick up smoothly from there… Our chiropractor appointment was finally here. I was so anxious and excited to […]

sleeping baby

This week I was returning to work. And I was really freaking sad. I was not looking forward to going back to work at all. I think it was a couple of different things, but mainly knowing that Jolee was my absolute last baby made me sad. I just wasn’t ready to go back to […]

exhausted baby and mom

Even though I have been a mom before, I sometimes feel like it’s my first time all over again. I catch myself constantly looking back at my older posts to see what I did with the other kids in terms of sleeping, napping, breastfeeding. But every kid is different. EXCEPT…NONE OF MY KIDS LIKE TO […]

sleepy baby

When I say never, I mean, absolutely 100% NEVER have I ever wanted to be a stay at home mom. This is ZERO judgement if you are a stay at home mom. I freaking bow down to you if you are a stay at home mom. You are the real MVP. I love my kids […]

strong daughter

Just like that another week has flown by. I cannot believe we are about to enter into week 4 postpartum already. Overall, nothing major has changed. Jolee still isn’t sleeping more than 3 hours a night, which is expected. I would like to tell you that it’s starting to wear on me, but I feel […]

baby sleep

Well, my glorious 4 hours stretchs of sleep came to a halt this week. I am fairly certain that Jolee is going through a growth spurt. I was aware that growth spurts happen between weeks 2 and 3, so I was ultimately prepared for it. They can last anywhere from a couple of days to […]

postpartum newborn

We left the hospital late afternoon on a Saturday. As we were leaving the hospital, I was concerned about my mental state. I told Scott that I just needed today to recover, but was that really all I needed? Just one day to get my shit together? On top of my extreme emotions from our […]


I did have a really terrible day yesterday. Which prompted the really negative post. But, last night, I actually got some sleep, so I felt compelled to write about the somewhat positives of my first 12 weeks with Briar and maybe elaborate a little more on certain situations currently going on in my life. She […]