I’m sitting at home. ALONE. ALL ALONE. L I T E R A L L Y A L L A L O N E. And it’s been such a great day. I have done so much stuff today that has really filled my cup up to make me a whole human being again. As I […]

one year old

After a hectic start to Jolee’s life…where are we now? Well, I did not keep up month to month posts with Jolee. So, we are pretty much going to jump from 4 months old to now…1 year old. She’s perfect. And feisty. And funny. And I love her so much. As I was editing the […]

infant speech therapy

Throughout the whole Jolee’s Journey with the Bottle…I have remained cautiously optimistic about the whole situation. She’s taken a bottle and then not taken a bottle and then taken a bottle again. I hoped this was the end of everything. I hoped she was really going to take a bottle forever. Well, not forever, but […]

We left the hospital late afternoon on a Saturday. As we were leaving the hospital, I was concerned about my mental state. I told Scott that I just needed today to recover, but was that really all I needed? Just one day to get my shit together? On top of my extreme emotions from our […]


After Jolee was delivered, we had to spend 2 1/2 days in the hospital. Day 1 was essentially great. I got to meet Jolee. After I gave birth, we did immediate skin to skin. I had a second degree tear so they went straight to sewing me up. Let me tell you, this is not […]

kangaroo care

May 8, 2019. My actual due date. How in the actual fuck am I still pregnant? I cannot believe that I am still pregnant. I was never supposed to see my due date. She was supposed to be here for at least 2 weeks by now. NOPE. Shit man. This was uncomfortable. I did not […]

Week 40 of Pregnancy 6

This week, our little Briar officially turns 2 on January 22. It’s really weird, but I feel like she’s been 2 for a long time. I cannot believe I have a 4 year old, a 2 year old, and in 15 weeks, I will have one more. What the fuck were we thinking? I haven’t […]

Week 25 of Pregnancy 6

Next week is the anatomy scan and I find myself being a lot of different emotions this week. I so badly want to be excited for this pregnancy, but as I stated last week, I am still cautiously reserved. But I’m more excited right now than I thought I would be. Then, I read stories […]

Week 19 of Pregnancy 6

And just like that, I’m on my last work trip of the year! This time, however, I will be gone for an entire week. And I will be in Fort Lauderdale. I have training Monday – Thursday from 7:30 a.m. – 7:00 p.m. and then I have a test on Friday from 8:00 a.m. – […]

Week 18 Pregnancy 6

With the exception of a couple people, Scott and I decided that we were going to wait even longer than normal to tell everyone that we were pregnant, which just makes things so difficult. So far, we have told my parents, his parents, his grandparents, 3 friends, and my CrossFit coaches. I would say it […]

Week 9 of Pregnancy 6

Here we are again. Week 4. In my last post, You Ever Have An “OH SHIT” Moment?, you read that I was unexpectedly pregnant again. And it was already looking bad. Whenever I went to the doctor on Wednesday, they did a quick blood draw to test my HCG levels. They were convinced and I […]

Week 4 of Pregnancy 6

It’s been almost 3 months since I have posted anything about the kids, so time for an update! Raelynn will be 4 in less than 1 month. **cue the tears** Briar is 18 months old. I swear, I blink and they have aged by a month. Raelynn is my cute little ginger. Her curiosity and […]

toddler gardening

This week is the week that we’ve been waiting for. And behold…we have a baby with a heartbeat. The appointment overall was a little uneasy for me. Whenever I went in on January 10th, according to my last missed period, I would have been 8 weeks. According to date of conception it was 7 weeks […]

This week was crazy. Never a dull moment in our lives these days. For me, it was work. I have a lot of year end work that I have to do so I had to work on New Year’s Eve and New Year’s Day. Also, if you remember from my last post, Scott was in […]

This week was crazy. It was the dreaded Christmas week. And much more excitement. Some good and some bad… The good… We had the entire Christmas Eve holiday all to ourselves. Just me, Scott, Raelynn, and Briar. No where to go. Nothing to do. So what did we do? We did Christmas shit. We watched […]