I’m sitting at home. ALONE. ALL ALONE. L I T E R A L L Y A L L A L O N E. And it’s been such a great day. I have done so much stuff today that has really filled my cup up to make me a whole human being again. As I […]

one year old

After a hectic start to Jolee’s life…where are we now? Well, I did not keep up month to month posts with Jolee. So, we are pretty much going to jump from 4 months old to now…1 year old. She’s perfect. And feisty. And funny. And I love her so much. As I was editing the […]

infant speech therapy

Throughout the whole Jolee’s Journey with the Bottle…I have remained cautiously optimistic about the whole situation. She’s taken a bottle and then not taken a bottle and then taken a bottle again. I hoped this was the end of everything. I hoped she was really going to take a bottle forever. Well, not forever, but […]

Well, I’m 4 months into our new life of 4. It’s definitely hectic and we are still trying to figure things out. I’ve been asked several times how much harder are things with two kids. Everything is harder. But, in my personal opinion, the hardest adjustment was going from 0 kids to 1 kid. You […]

I did have a really terrible day yesterday. Which prompted the really negative post. But, last night, I actually got some sleep, so I felt compelled to write about the somewhat positives of my first 12 weeks with Briar and maybe elaborate a little more on certain situations currently going on in my life. She […]

I’ve been slacking, as expected, just hoped it wouldn’t be another 6 weeks later… Well, I’m just going to dive right in. These past 6 weeks have been pretty terrible. My thoughts are pretty scattered right now, so I’m sure this post will be too. I apologize in advance. I am most definitely going through […]

I am finding myself consumed in anxiety, worry, and just really fucking overwhelmed within the past week. I almost somewhat feel like my old self again. And not the good, fun loving old self. The old self that was in a really bad place. So, I will just jump right into it. In my prior […]

Week 24 or Pregnancy 4

I continue to slack at life. I’m hoping this will be my last mass update. I completed my very first CrossFit Open. I did VERY average. But I’m VERY okay with that. These workouts pushed me to my limit, pushed me to wanting to quit every single workout, pushed me to want to puke my […]

I’m pretty sure this has been my longest blog break. And I totally need to blog, vent, let it out. Ready…here goes the timeline of events in the past two months: We now have our own house and we love it!!! It’s everything we’ve ever wanted plus more. I know that we are 100% where […]

Tonight, we are taking a break from our busy schedules and we are going to see our new niece, Harper Grace. Scott’s sister had her yesterday and it’s our first niece. We have two nephews so we are excited for a niece. Plus, Raelynn will have a playmate now that is close in age to […]

Today is the last day at my current job. I have so many mixed feelings about it; both good and bad. This job made me feel like I was useful again. it made me feel like more than a milk machine to my little girl. It made me feel like a person again. With all […]

I am that mother that googles. WHY? WHY do I do this to myself? I’ll never understand because I know what the outcome is. Basically my child is going to die according to google. Every. Single. Time. UGHHH, I hate it! So, why did I google? Because Dr. Google has all the answers… Raelynn inhaled […]

Dr. Google

Update from my last blog post Struggling with my Career: I was “officially” told my last day would be July 31st, 2015. We are still house hunting Our house is officially on the market Raelynn is changing day cares My life is coming to an end.. …Not really, but sometimes I feel like my life […]

Scott and I have recently decided that it was time to sell our house and buy a new one. We are very quickly outgrowing our 1000 sq ft house. Little did I know, I could not get preapproved for a loan with a temporary job status. So, last Thursday, I approached my boss and asked […]

Career Struggle

Dealing with anxiety, post partum depression and how a schedule can affect this