I live in fear every single day. Nonstop, constant, unrealistic, fucking annoying fear. The closest that I’ve come to detailing my fear and worry to is my therapist. So, what does a day in the life of my overthinking brain look like? Wake up at 5:00 a.m. to go workout. When dressed and teeth brushed, […]

I had a therapy appointment this past Tuesday. It was the first appointment since Scott and I had went together. There was a lot to talk about and fill her in on. She initially asked how I had been since I was on the verge of a mental breakdown the last time I was there. […]

As I’ve said many times in 2018, this year has been really tough on me, personally. I’m trying really hard to work through it, but I just feel like I always get knocked down. Throughout all of my personal issues, it’s also been tough on my marriage. Honestly, it’s not just this year that has […]

Since I have been struggling so bad recently, I ended up going back to see the person, Jamie, that did my chakragraph reading. She does reiki healing or energy work. It’s basically her calling upon spirits to go through my chakras and get rid of the bad energy. Yes, I know, it sounds a bit […]

After realizing I was still being irrational..see last post…, I finally talked to Scott that night. I basically told him everything I was feeling about medicine, and keto, and therapy, and life. When I texted him and asked if he would go to therapy with me, I offered no explanation. I wanted to at least […]

I am having an extremely hard time dealing with the latest news with my uterus. I cannot recover from it. I think about it non-stop. It really is consuming my life right now. And I hate it. With all of the events in 2018, and especially in the past two weeks, my anxiety is spiraling […]

Well, it’s next week. And I still have pregnancy hormones. AKA my HCG levels are above 0. So aggravating. I went to the doctor on Thursday and they called me on Friday, around the same time as last week. “Hey Keisha, I just wanted to let you know that your HCG levels are a 33, […]

The day of my follow up doctor appointment in regards to my bicornuate uterus , I was actually off work. Briar had a well check that morning, then I had my appointment, and then I had a massage scheduled for a little later in the day. While I waited for my massage, I asked Scott […]

For real. This happened. And for anyone that knows me, knows this is huge. I get it, it sounds so fucking dumb. But I am a creature of habit. I thrive on a schedule. And for me to break a schedule purposely…that’s a big freaking deal. First of all, I don’t even know what my […]

My anxiety is in OVERDRIVE… The main trigger – Raelynn started soccer. And I feel like such an asshole mom that this triggered my anxiety. I should be so excited that Raelynn started a sport. And I literally dread it. It’s simple, really. My schedule changed and it literally fucked my whole world up. And […]

Raelynn has had some very minor medical issues. She’s had an ongoing UTI for about a month. We have been treating it, but it’s not been going away. It initially started because she was sick and running a fever. I took her to the doctor and they tested her for a bunch of different things […]

I feel like I have a never ending to-do list. 24/7, 365 days a year. Whenever I have the chance to mark something off, another task or two gets added. I thrive off lists and organization. I literally feel lost without all of my to-do lists. I have work to-do lists, personal to-do lists, family […]